Today I learned...

how great a second day off in a row feels.
I'm incredibly nervous.

Today I learned...

how good a day off feels.
Staying up until 7AM the previous day was worth it.

Today I learned...

how to drop off the face of the planet for a moment, and how to be brought back.

Today I learned...

how truly great old friends are, and how sometimes those friends are younger than you'd believe.

Today I learned...

A week ago I was in Denver, Colorado.
A week ago I was very happy.
I am still happy here.

Today I learned...

My family rocks harder than ever. Party. Cash. Merry Christmas.

I know. It's clear.

Today I learned...

This year won't feel like Christmas.

Today I learned...

that I can't be too careful.

Today I learned...

"Fun" turns into something different entirely, but doesn't necessarily change at all.

Today I learned...

As much as I love Colorado, it's good to be home.
The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo was beautiful. (American version)
I just don't know.

Today I learned...

I don't want to leave. I feel at home here, in a strange but fantastic way.

Today I learned...

I want to live here. And I can see why.

Today I learned...

Sometimes new friends are more welcoming than old.

Today I learned...

Denver, Colorado; I love.

Today I learned...

to surround myself with friends (old and new) more often.
to trust my instincts more often.

Today I learned...

People suck. More than ever.
Headaches suck. More than ever.
Friends and other assorted nice people make life easier. More than ever.

Today I learned...

that Wednesdays drag. And I have work that's good enough to hang on the walls. Wahoo and stuff.

Today I learned...

that Taylor Swift's birthday is today.

Today I learned...

I have some cool friends that like my cool ideas.

Today I learned...

I have the best mom in the world.

Today I learned...

I need to start keeping promises that I make to myself.

Today I learned...

growing up is really scary and exciting and I am indecisive.

Today I learned...

all some people want is to take, and take, and take.
I only want to give.

Today I learned...

people will never stop surprising me.

Today I learned...

about my limits and that this is what I get for stepping over my own boundaries, even only slightly.

Today I learned...

I still miss Lisa.
I still miss Ethan.
I still miss everyone and everything.

Today I learned...

Christina Perri is so incredible. She writes the most beautiful songs that I can relate to 100%.

Today I learned...

that my love of Flight of the Conchords is once again renewed.

Today I learned...

how well business and pleasure mix... not at all.

Today I learned...

how to be boring.

Today I learned...

that you are not in love. Bummer.

Today I learned...

that I am in love. It's hopeless. Is that really love?

Today I learned...

to wait, patiently.

Today I learned...

something I've known for a long time.


You.
Idiot.
Fin.

Today I learned...

Lazy days are healthy days, until there's work to do. Hang on tight.

Today I learned...

I have the coolest mom in the entire world.

Today I learned...

at least a thousand more reasons why I love my family so very much.

Today I learned...

Disappointment 101.

Today I learned...

There are still nice people in the world, and it's still pretty easy to have fun, even when things aren't looking up.

Today I learned...

How to get scared over whether or not I get to shoot a show.
How to get excited about seeing friends.
How to miss someone more than anything in the entire world.
How to not say anything.

Today I learned...

just another day of catch-up.

Today I learned...

The BEST of times, and the WORST of times.

THE CHARIOT is so incredible live. Listener is the best thing to ever happen to me. Vanna surprised me more and more each second. Former Thieves went out with a bang.

Today I learned...

Playing hooky ain't no thang.

Today I learned...

to learn from my mistakes.

Today I learned...

how it feels to be six months away from 21, and how to trust someone blindly.

Today I learned...

how to buckle down and git'er'dun.

Today I learned...

"I haven't been a nerd for a long time... Hello, dating a guitarist... Or, I was."
- Willow from Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Today I learned...

how to sleep.

Today I learned...

Into It. Over It. deserves so much fame. One of the most intimate and heartfelt live performances that I've ever experienced. That's what I want. That's what I need.

Today I learned...

things do not always go as planned, no matter what you wish for.

Today I learned...

I just want to begin to let go.
I would like to just forget.
I think it's time for this.

Today I learned...

How it feels to be let down.

Today I learned...

something significant.

But I seem to have forgotten already.

I should write these things down.

Today I learned...

I don't love you
like I did
yesterday.

Today I learned...

how it feels to relax.

Today I learned...

I am okay.

Today I learned...

I was born for this.

I love this.

I'm making this happen, even if it kills me.

Today I learned...

that I am incredibly lucky and incredibly easy to frustrate.

Today I learned...

It is incredibly possible that I may drive myself to madness.
What an insane amount of work ...with a failing computer?
Things would be so much simpler if they just worked.

11:11.

Today I learned...

I can get a lot done with a little time.

I am just going to keep writing forever.

Today I learned...

Some people are so ignorant, they give me a headache.
The game of "Catch-Up" is tricky.
The best things happen in small doses.
I love someone who doesn't love me back.
I care too much to say it out loud.
I am a writing fiend; I want to change my life; I want to get on stage.

Happy Halloween.

Today I learned...

I haven't changed a bit, but my memory is foggy. I make such awful decisions sometimes.

Only time will tell.

Today I learned...

I love my family.
I love my friends, whether they're right in front of me or not.

Today I learned...

Compliments rock. I love dressing up. Those are two separate situations.

Today I learned...

I was born a few months too late. Getting to the point of exhaustion.

Today I learned...

that I am really good at this, and I could enjoy it for a really long time.

Stay live is so incredible.


The Noise Tour was such a rad experience.

Today I learned...

that some people are the absolute worst, and some people are the absolute best.

Today I learned...

I don't think I could change if I tried.

Today I learned...

Instead of learning something, I would like to share my day. Maybe by the end of typing it out, I'll be able to discern what I learned out of the jumble of what happened.

Yesterday, I saw Paranormal Activity 3. Holy gosh, oh man, eek, freaked the f out. I love Kentucky accents, but I don't think they like me. I like when people listen to their own music. I like when someone I respect musically is critical of someone else's work with detailed reason. (That's what you get, jerk.) I like being sneaky. I am terrified of driving on mountains, but I do just fine. I love German Shepherds. The view is worth it. So is the conversation. I don't like saying goodnight. But I like making up my mind. Shooting stars and constellations are my second favorite thing at this point in time. And then it happens and it's not what I expect, but not something I can explain either. In that moment, everything is chaotic and everything is understood. And then the moment ends, but not before it lingers. I am too late.

Today, I loved and I adventured. I did things I didn't think I would, and didn't do things I thought I could. The waterfall is my second favorite thing within five miles of where I stood at that moment. Now if only I could follow through; hook, line, and sinker - with doubt setting in. I made all the right choices at all the right times, and all the wrong choices at all the right times. I can't explain the feeling I have when I'm here. I can't believe the calm. You make me so angry, but I'm staying so calm. I hear everything I've experienced and want to be the exception, not the rule; although I know clearly where I stand, I feel as though I can be that person, even when I am so aware that I am not. And that's the effect you have on me. And this is how we work. Take, take, take, give, take. Give, take, give, give, take. No matter how you look, it is skewed, and it lies perfectly. And even when it's interrupted, I can smile. I know, I do, I understand. Today I am here, tomorrow I am not, but you won't take that chance. I know, I do, you love, and I am in love, helplessly, if it is possible to be in love with different feelings.

Today I learned how to scare myself into staying awake while driving through torrential rain and lightening. 

Today I learned...

the drive to Kentucky gets easier every time I drive it. Indiana can be beautiful. Kentucky always was beautiful, but it was more beautiful today. I get weak in the knees when I think about seeing someone who has broken my heart a million times without knowing it, even after I say it out loud. I like and love him. I don't know if I want to, and it's so hot and cold. I like and love scary movies, but there are reasons for that. I like the way I feel when I'm here.

Today I learned...

a great deal of things.

I have the most incredible parents, and they give me hope that love still exists and can stay strong through years of change. There are nice people in the world, and there are still people who can surprise me with kindness. Every nice boy that I meet has a girlfriend or turns out to not be nice at all. Shooting bigger-name shows is okay. Some of my friends are really fantastic. The rest of them are just straying from the path a little bit. I want to keep things going. I want to make more of an effort. I am happy. I am motivated. I am positive. I've dealt with so much negativity in my life, and now I feel like it's time to have a balance of true happiness. Wherever that thinking leads me is where I will go. For the first time in my life I have no clue what I want but I know exactly where I'm going.

Today I learned...

that I should probably learn to say no, and give myself a chance to catch up on my own projects before taking more on.

Today I learned...

that I like being busy, and I like keeping up on things. I should work on that a little more.

Today I learned...

BILLY ZANE IS AWESOME.
I knew that already.
He's such a beautiful human being, and I got to take his picture. Best. Day. Ever.

Sorry for sounding like a fangirl.

Today I learned...

I'm bad at being sick. The worst. I hate it. It sucks. I can't get anything done this way.

I'm excited for the next chapter in my life.

Today I learned...

I've got it. I need to feel better to keep getting it, though. I'm worth it.

Today I learned...

How much of an ass that an ex-boyfriend can be.
Idiot.
Loser.
Jerk.
Idiot.


I know who my real friends are.

Karma.

Crushes.

Today I learned...

I don't know if I'm ready for this. I haven't prepared. Tomorrow is on my mind.

On the contrary, I am so ready for this.

Today I learned...

How to start filling a void.

Today I learned...

I still care, and it sucks so bad.

Today I learned...

I still got that girly-girl trait in me.
It feels great to get all dolled up.

Today I learned...

To be gutsy. Or at least that I should start trying harder to be.

Today I learned...

that I love myself. I truly do. It's so easy sometimes.

Today I learned...

Life > time.

Today I learned...

This is what I'm built for. Shooting shows is the only thing that makes me really, truly happy.

Oh, that and coming home to Kingsley every day.

My family is pretty cool, too.

Today I learned...

Dreams say the darndest things.

Today I learned...

It just ain't gonna work out.

Today I learned...

Sometimes, people change.
Sometimes, I need to stand up for myself.
Sometimes, I need to be okay with being jealous.
Sometimes, I need to allow myself to calm down.
Sometimes, I need to just breathe.

Today I learned...

Can't watch Grave Encounters by myself.
Can't watch Rango without getting sad when he's alone and being picked on.
Can't stand the first 19 minutes of James and the Giant Peach.

Can't deal with being without someone much longer. I'm a little sad that I don't have someone to cuddle with. I'm more than a little sad that I don't have someone to fall in love with. Trying to be patient. Trying to roll with the punches. Wish me luck.

Today I learned...

I can get the Packer games on cable, in hi-def! I am more excited about football this year than I have been since I can remember. (TOUCHDOWWWWWWN!!!)
I miss Papa and Mama.
I miss Grandma and Grandpa. And the rest of my extended family.
My Kingsley is the love of my life.
I want to walk forever.
I want to buy tickets to Europe.
I'm going to miss my friends that graduated, but honestly, I don't think I'll have time to let them know. That makes me so terribly sad.
I hope things work out.

Today I learned...

about some awesome bands. And I got to take pictures of them. What an incredible opportunity I find myself with.

I need to be less shy.
I'll work on it.

Today I learned...

I. Have. Theeeee. SWEETEST. Kitten. Ever.

His name is Kingsley. He's GREAT.

Today I learned...

Bad days start bad. But they can end well.








@occupychicago

Today I learned...

Leaving home is the hardest thing sometimes.

Today I learned...

A full set of Circa Survive will change your life.

Today I learned...

that I'm way confused. I'm split in two on this one. Complete opposites battling inside of me.

Today I learned...

There is nothing quite like some good ol' R&R.

Today I learned...

that I have some good friends... and some not so good ones.

Today I learned...

Waking up really early and starting to get work done is way worth it. Such a productive day, already.

Today I learned...

Michael Jordan is a good-looking man in person.

Today I learned...

Good days, bad days. I have two quarters of my Bachelors's program left.

Today I learned...

busy day. People who you are nice to can turn around like nobody's business.
I'm fairly certain I had a breakthrough while I took a walk, but all I can think now is that I feel safe. And comfortable. And happy.

Today I learned...

Yellow is my color right now.
I'm learning to put my trust in people.

Happy Birthday, Dadster.

Today I learned...

Three years can hit you like going head-first into a brick wall.
Walks are the cure for headaches, but you can walk right back into another headache.
Falling asleep isn't so scary.
Waiting is the best feeling. I don't know why I haven't tried this before. Patience.
Keeping track of everything is way more crucial than ever before.
Shopping makes everything better and worse.
Boys make everything worse.
Mom and Dad make everything better.

Today I learned...

Some things are expected.
Some things are a little less expected.

Today I learned...

I should start to write more things down precisely when I think of them.

Today I learned...

that I have an incredible opportunity in front of me.

Today I learned...

I guess this is growing up.

Today I learned...

oh... my... gosh...

Today I learned...

that good days can turn bad real quick if you don't watch it.

Today I learned...

saying I love you is not the same as falling in love.

Today I learned...

what real love looks like. The wedding today was so incredible, and I was so happy to be a part of it. I wish I could put it into words, but I really can't. The closest I can come is to quote Mikey, "I've never been so happy for two people I don't know in my life." (I believe that I've found a wonderful new friend in him.) That's how real the love between Arielle and Jordan is. It was fantastic and heartbreaking for me to see. I hope no bad ever touches them. They are so strong, as their families are. Yesterday I had a perfect example, THE perfect example, that love was real shoved in my face. It made me hopeful but at the same time it broke my heart. I hate to think that I'll never find that. My heart is still lost, but it knows what it's looking for. I feel like I did when I was younger and got lost in the woods behind my house. I knew where I wanted to go, but I used other landmarks and markings to find it. And as each sign brought me closer to home, it was never what I was really looking for. The uncertainty of it all comforted me and then made me more terrified than the moment before the last. That is what love is like from my personal experience. I hope it becomes as real as the outline of my home through the trees.

Today I learned...

how to put on a gallery show.

not to wear heels all day... bring flats.

how to admit that I have a crush on someone to one of their really close friends.

how to roll wit the punches. I feel like I'm getting better at this thing called life.

Today I learned...

that I love my internship (again).
that Miley Cyrus looks just as weird in real life (sorry, girl).
that I want to live in a city somewhere (no more suburbs for this girl).
that people show up in the most unexpected places (Melissa?!)
that I have some great friends that I can basically pick up where I left off with after not talking for awhile (that's you, Vic).
that Chicago has a lot to offer (what a neat place).
that meeting new, nice people and saying "see you around" without getting their number or even their name is pretty funny after the fact (better luck next time).

Today I learned...

Teachers are crazy. Friends are wonderful.

Today I learned...

Buy one get one free RULES.
My ex-boyfriend drools.

Today I learned...

I can do this. All of it. I can take this on.

Today I learned...

that I can't wait to be so happy that nothing else matters.

Today I learned...

that it's going to be tough, but I can get through it. Honestly. I can. It will all be worth it no matter what.

Today I learned...

that it hurts just as badly now.

Today I learned...

to be excited about something.
And about some things.

Today I learned...

that falling asleep in class makes me jumpy.

Today I learned...

Tuesdays suck a little less. But they still suck.

Today I learned...

Mondays suck.

Today I learned...

I miss mom so much. It sucks to be home and leave without seeing her. I have the raddest, most loving and forgiving parents ever.

Today I learned...

Music video = ohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgod.

Couches + cars = nonononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono.

Today I learned...

"These friends are, new friends are golden."

Unity Show, you looked gooooooooood.

Today I learned...

how much work I can get knocked out in one day.

I TRIED to force myself to sleep in. Eh...

Today I learned...

for myself what so many others have been trying to tell me all along.

Today I learned...

The impossible is possible.

Today I learned...

dreams get jump-started, I get going.

Today I learned...

Three AM is the worst time of the day sometimes.

Today I learned...

I HAVE THE MOST INCREDIBLE FAMILY EVER.

Today I learned...

that my poor kitten does not like car rides at all.

Today I learned...

I HAVE THE MOST INCREDIBLE FRIENDS.

Today I learned...

"Even though this conflict may be passive, and it may involve something you don't talk about or deal with, it needs to be resolved just the same. If you don't deal with it, you won't be able to change things."


Had a bad day.

Today I learned...

about how different people and their reactions to situations are. It's incredible how some can be so grown up, while others hold grudges and intentionally show you their worst. That's such a fake way to live; one second, you're acting high and mighty, like no one can best you at anything and everyone looks up to you and bows at your feet, and the next second you're the wicked witch that I know best. It's so disappointing, because I'm sure you're a better person than that.

I guess it all comes down to growing up, or at least that's the way that I see it. You can look at the facts, forgive, forget, and stop being selfish. Or you can stay right up there on your pedestal until someone comes through and knocks you down. Trust me, someone will. I know, simply because when you've put yourself on a pedestal, you lose your real stability and sense of self.

Today I learned...

I'm getting a little bit stronger.

Today I learned...

many things.
I was reminded that I have the most beautiful, incredible, and selfless mother in the entire world. She is seriously fantastic. I don't deserve the fabulous family that I have been brought into. I have so many wonderful people surrounding me with love, I don't know why I ever get sad about anything.


I might kinda sorta maybe have a little bit of a crush-o-la. Oye veigh.

Today I learned...

I can feel beautiful, and I can make myself feel better. Sometimes I get things right.

Today I learned...

I have awesome friends, even without a certain someone around. Conversations like those had tonight are priceless. Nights like these are priceless. It's easy to tell who's real and who's fake on nights like tonight.

Today I learned...

I have the coolest, nerdiest mom ever. And the kindest, most generous dad.
They're both my favorite people in the world.

Today I learned...

Someone I really care about sucks a lot.
Total jerk status.

Today I learned...

Tuesdays are the worst. And the best.

Tree of Life is a beautiful film.

Today I learned...

about myself.

Today I learned...

a few things here and there.

Today I learned...

I'm here, and you're here, and we're so far away.

Today I learned...

I can come up with something fantastic.

Today I learned...

"The hardest part of letting go of you is I don't want you to let me. Well, I'm running away 'cause you do the same, my heart is begging you to tell me to stay, but it's never the same."

Today I learned...

that leaving Kinglsey (even for a day) is tough.

I love that little pudding cup more than anything else in this world.

Today I learned...

that it can feel easy, but it might be the most difficult thing in the entire world.

Today I learned...

Getting through something is as easy or as difficult as you want to make it. Whether it be a day to day thing or something that you need more than a little while to figure out, it's all about letting yourself become a better person in the process. If you don't let yourself, you won't be able to make progress. "If you only let go a little bit, you will only be a little bit free."

Today I learned...

"I'll leave the lights down low so she knows I mean business. And maybe we could talk this over, 'cause I could be your best bet, let alone your worst ex... I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't stop this anymore than you can. So, honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything and you know very well that I can't keep my hands to myself? This is all wrong and it shows; there's certain things I promised not to let you know, you've got a silly way of keeping me up on the edge of my seat, but you're only counting the clock against the train. And I'm miserable, and you're just getting started. You've got me right where you want me, let's never talk about this again, because I didn't want it to mean that much to me."

Today I learned...

You are a lie.
And you've been a lie this whole time.


"I'm trying not to confuse being used and giving all I am by being used and giving all I have, all I am."

Today I learned...

Everything about you hurts to think about.
I find myself being honest with myself only when it's convenient and makes me more mad than I am sad about the situation that we find ourselves in. Or maybe the situation that I find myself in... I haven't quite decided yet.
I wish I could take all the time that I'm wasting on being upset in one form or another and give it back to myself. But I think that's your job. You're the one that needs to come to me and fix this, if you so desire. How much can you give before you need to take some of it back?



I'm still sitting here being in love with you.

Today I learned...

that you can't make someone love you or care about you, but you can choose to surround yourself with those that already love and care about you.

Today I learned...

I just want to save myself from you.
This is the thing.
It's possible for someone to not care about something that you so deeply wanted to mend.
It's possible for all the love you put into something to go unnoticed.
And it is without a doubt possible to mistake someone for someone else, someone they're not.
This is my experience. I am and am not ready to let go of this thing, because I pretended my way into making it real. I can't tell anyone - not even my best friends, my family, or myself - how many times I convinced myself to keep going and that things would get better. It would all figure itself out, right? You would grow up and and we would grow old.
Right. Except it's not, and it's never been. Giving someone all you have is exhausting when all that's happening at the end of the line is taking. That's not how you get closer to someone. That's how you drain yourself until there's almost nothing left. And that little bit that you're left with is like a magnet that is placed with the same charge towards them; it's fascinating to try to push together but that doesn't make one any more inclined to reach out to the other.
Except when it does.
I'm not insane, but you make me feel like I've made up the last 5 months of my life. I didn't imagine this. Why would I imagine something without a happy ending? I wouldn't.
Show me your heart so I can finally see what it looks like. Show me what I've been missing out on for the longest time. Show me where I went wrong.
I wish there was an end-all, cure-all; but there isn't. You can care less and less with every hour that passes, but it just makes me care more and more with every minute of that hour. Now, that's interesting. I'm not a particularly complicated person, but that's something, isn't it? That's because this is real life. This is a real person, with real feelings that you're dealing with.
Here I am being punished for reacting to something out of my control. And I'm the one that feels like I need to apologize indefinitely, just so I can hang on to something that I'm not even satisfied with in the first place.
Right now is so much more than right now.

Today I learned...

how to have a broken heart but still feel okay.

Today I learned...

that just because you try to stand up for what you love doesn't mean anyone is going to follow along.

Today I learned...

how much it hurts.

Today I learned...

That mistakes hide really well until it's to late to even learn something.

Today I learned...

a little more about peripheral vision.

Today I learned...

I have so many things to learn.

My mom helped me with so much today. I was on the verge of making a serious mistake, and she proved to me once again that she's the best mother in the entire world. Today made me realize that I have a family that I wouldn't trade for the entire world. And friends that I wouldn't be anywhere without.

Today I learned...

I'm Singin' In The Rain.

Today I learned...

There are people that you can let ruin your day, and then there are people that make you feel invincible.

Today I learned...

I have things to be excited about.
And I'm all about falling down stairs, apparently.

Today I learned...

that I can still scare myself with how quickly I let myself slip into all these plans; but in a good way.

Today I learned...

how wonderful growing up can be.

Today I learned...

Days go by.

Today I learned...

that I am fully and truly in love.

In all honesty, he snuck up on me.

Today I learned...

I'm stronger than I thought I ever could be.

Rest In Peace, Alvina. I miss you so much.

Today I learned...

I can get through it. I can tear down walls of fear and I can tear down walls of worry. I can trust so many people, and today I started looking at it that exact way; instead of seeing all of the fake personalities around me, I'm seeing all of the real, genuine ones. And it's such a beautiful, eye-opening thing. It really is.

Today I learned...

...how quickly I can ruin something. Hurt someone. Hurt myself in the whole process. Take ten steps backwards.

Today taught me so much about myself, my relationships with those around me, and hopefully a better way to handle these things.

No care ever.

Today I learned...

that I'll figure it out... hopefully.

Today I learned...

Having a kitten is just like having a child.

Today I learned...

that I can still get stoked on my own inspiration.

Today I learned...

I've still got it.

Today I learned...

being positive is the best thing.

Today I learned...

to be patient.

I have the neatest friends.

Today I learned...

that family is beautiful.

Today I learned...

that we'll see.

Today I learned...

La De Les is still incredible. What a fantastic day.
Driving late at night gets harder every time I do it.
Sunburn sucks.

Today I learned...

I don't really know what I learned. I've been back and forth all day with thinking I know and not sure about knowing. I want to be comfortable. I want to feel okay in my own skin.

Today I learned...

Cornerstone is really hot.
La De Les is a wonderful band.
Listener is INCREDIBLE live.

Today I learned...

Cornerstone is hot.

Today I learned...

Cars are awesome.
I miss my boyfriend.
I'm a crazy person that starts driving to Cornerstone on a near-dead battery at 10PM.

Today I learned...

that keeping up with something can make you feel fantastic.

Today I learned...

to just breathe.

Today I learned...

Iowa's my best friend.

Today I learned...

I guess Fridays are okay. I like coming back to Illinois, now.

Today I learned...

Doctors can be fun.

Today I learned...

we can make this last.

Today I learned...

I have the motivation. I just need the means. Sometimes those things are very different.

Today I learned...

I'm going to have to handle this a lot. It'll be a process for sure. You don't get used to this. But you can learn how to deal with it. I hope that can be learned. I really do.

Today I learned...

something that I've known my entire life. My dad is awesome. Literally the best daddy in the world. I love him so much. I also have the coolest Grandpa(s) ever. I'm pretty lucky with family. They're rad.



Happy Father's Day!!

Today I learned...

I am the luckiest girl in the world. I have some of the coolest friends, and I don't mean to say that in a brag-gy way. The kids that I hang out with are just really legitimate people. I love them all. They're the ones that I know I can count on in any situation. We got this. We're all in this together. Bring life on.

Today I learned...

Good things come to those who wait.

Today I learned...

I have so much ahead of me.
Days go from bad to good and back again and again and again. There's no stopping it.

Today I learned...

that hard work pays off. So much. So so so so so so so so so muchhhhhhh.

Today I learned...

Lord of the Rings is still incredible.

Today I learned...

that you can focus on the bad or the good. You can focus on why you cried for two hours, or who made you smile for three minutes. You can focus on all the negative things, but when you realize that you like the positive things more, you start to only care about those things. I am starting to understand that perfection is boring - being myself is the truly interesting part. If that's not what someone wants, so be it. I can't please everyone. We all chose different paths, and the ones that matter to us are the ones that we should not be so afraid to take. We are all at different walks in our lives, and one person cannot hold another's chosen path against them for any reason. At some point, if our paths intertwine, they may not stay tangled together forever. And that is the wonder of choice. I can tell you about how I learned to grow a backbone and stand up for myself today, but I did not. Someone I was very close to in the past tried to hurt me, and at first it worked. But then I realized that everything they said to me had nothing to do with me - it was only what they wanted from me; something that was in the past and that I could not give them. When things are broken, they can be repaired, but it does not happen by pointing fingers - it happens by holding things together and letting everyone feel safe and human and alive.

Today I learned...

For all the things that I'm not prepared for, I am ready for something else that will get me there along the way. And that's how life cycles through. It's beautiful.

Today I learned...

I can still have fun. My friends are the coolest.

I jump to conclusions. And I want to learn how to worry less.

So in love.

Today I learned...

a lesson the hard way. But more importantly, I learned how to deal with a bad situation that I didn't know how to handle before; and that my friends are the best anyone could ask for.

Today I learned...

Chiropractors can do miracles. I feel so much better. But I should probably hold back on celebrating. Things could always go back to how they were. Ick.

Today I learned...

why I was so stoked yesterday. So worth it.

Today I learned...

that I can get ridiculously stoked about a castle when I don't even know what's in it.

Today I learned...

that it's someone's actual birthday. I thought it was fake. Oops.

Today I learned...

that some things are supposed to turn around.

Today I learned...

what it's like to actually get back what you lost. Not even two days went by and I was a mess. I have my better half.

Today I learned...

Waiting is the hardest part. Sometimes a wake up call is all it takes. But you have to wait for it.

Today I learned...

what it feels like to have to try to let go of the most important person to me outside of my family. And to have that person care that we were losing each other.

Today I learned...

time moves strangely.

Today I learned...

nothing of consequence. How to waste time and money. How to be a negative person for an entire 24 hour period.

Today I learned...

"No, it's not what it seems, it's just what you think it is."

Today I learned...

Motivation 101.

Today I learned...

Good things come to an end. I have a decision to make. I wish I knew.

Today I learned...

Chiropractors CAN work miracles.

Today I learned...

things and people can be taken away from you. You can't decide when, where, or why.

Today I learned...

that it's simply not enough to be good at something and love it. You have to learn.

Today I learned...

Sometimes things change and sometimes they don't. People always change. That's what's inevitable.

Today I learned...

I should learn to make decisions. I constantly weigh every option I can think of and that gets me nowhere unless I can learn to pick one of those options and run with it. Go.

Today I learned...

growing up can't always be smooth sailing.

Today I learned...

I have the greatest friends, and I really do miss the ones I don't see everyday anymore.

Today I learned...

that when I decide to go from almost black hair to really red hair, I should just go get it done professionally the first time around.

Also, kids in trucks don't know how to drive.

Today I learned...

Professional Development is trying to take over my life.

Today I learned...

I'm no dummy when it comes to Stats. Watch out.

Today I learned...

that I get it.

Today I learned...

I'm getting older all the time.

Today I learned...

that being a teenager probably wasn't that bad. Now it's almost over and I'm terrified.

Today I learned...

that I am ready to expand my horizons.

Today I learned...

Some friends are forever.

Today I learned...

No one reads signs.

Today I learned...

I have the most incredible people in my life. People that love me unconditionally.

Today I learned...

I have some friends and I have some people who would be happy to have me out of their lives.

Today I learned...

bad days make way for the better days.

Today I learned...

a lot about my future, and a lot about potential.

Today I learned...

that this is going to be tougher than I could have ever imagined.

Today I learned...

A new camera is one of the greatest blessings my sanity could have right now. I am extremely fortunate to have the people and things around me that I do.

Today I learned...

I am like a kid in a candy store when things come in the mail for me. Especially when it's a lens and some memory cards.

I have the coolest parents ever.

And I miss my Wisconsin friends very much. I literally can't wait to see them tomorrow. Sheck a roun'.

Today I learned...

I can still sleep. A little.

Today I learned...

I'm a very impatient person.


[7D numero 2  came in today. Going to get it tomorrow. Let's try this again. Back off, fire!]

Today I learned...

I'm taking baby steps, but that's okay. Sometimes leaps and bounds aren't what it takes if you want to travel great distances.

Today I learned...

Somethings up. Change is in the air.

Today I learned...

Being surrounded by my best friends with a camera in my hand is the best feeling in the world. Seeing all the images and footage that I capture is so rewarding.

Today I learned...

Kingmaker is doing things right. They're all meant to be exactly where they are. They love doing what they're doing, and they're good at it. I guess I've known that for awhile, but it hit home when they played their first show back since the fire. For the first time in five years, I had tears in my eyes while I was shooting. I love those guys.

Today I learned...

I have a direction and I'm going for it.

Today I learned...

I'm making the right decisions.

Today I learned...

I have some of the coolest friends a girl could ask for and they are the best. I like laughing.
I'm very good at getting situations in order and I like taking charge, but things don't always go as planned. You can't rely on everyone in the professional world.

Today I learned...

starting over is tough.

Today I learned...

"You Have My Attention" is a hard song to get out of your head, but I'm not complaining.

Today I learned...

that I'm in love.

Today I learned...

that I'm growing up.

Today I learned...

that no matter what, under every burden that becomes me, I have the ability to be happy. And nothing can take that away from me.

Today I learned...

I have a purpose, and that purpose is inspiring.

Today I learned...

There is a method within everything.

Today I learned...

Things take time and effort to heal themselves. Even after you have a problem fixed, it can still jump back out at you. Life never stops. Not even for one second.

Appreciate what you have, because it doesn't last forever.

Today I learned...

...that bad days go away.

Today literally started out as a terrible horrible no good very bad day. And now it's alright. I talked to someone that I haven't seen in 3 years and probably haven't talked to in at least 6 months. Hearing that people are doing well makes me happier than anything, especially when I know they deserve it.

Today I learned...

... this is for real.

Today I learned...

... three years doesn't make something hurt less. But surrounding yourself with best friends and good times does.

Today I learned...

...that I have the best friend a girl could ask for.

Today, I learned...

...that I stand out.


[I suppose I should explain a few things. Today, during one of my classes I got this idea to start an online journal of sorts. I want to talk about something that I learn (good or otherwise) every single day. I don't have any time limits, and I'm not gonna beat myself up if I miss a day or two (although I hope I don't). I don't know if I'll explain everything. Sometimes I think it's best to leave an open end to things. Leaves room for interpretation later on.


We'll see how it turns out. I'm very excited to be able to look back on this in the years to come.]