Today I learned...

how it feels to be back in Chicago. I'll admit, I've missed it. Now bring it on.

Today I learned...

that I am okay. I think. I have been giving myself such a hard time lately, and I think that today something clicked, and now I at least understand why. Or part of the why. Well, let's put it this way, just to get it out in the open where it belongs. I am okay because I am living. I am okay because I am making choices and decisions. I am okay because even if I think I am the worst person on the face of the planet that makes the worst decisions on the face of the planet, I am still just staying alive. I am making that conscious decision, and living my life is so much better than the alternative. I think. This probably comes off as really awful and creepy and like I am some crazy person. But I don't think I am; because I am starting to accept myself for who I am and there is nothing more exciting or worthwhile to me. I've let some things go that I never thought I would be able to. I've followed through with things I never thought I could. I feel as though I have courage to live my life and be who I am, and be okay with both of those things.

Also, T.SWIFT gets me.

Today I learned...

your real friends will know your worth, your real friends will trust your judgement, your real friends will never do anything that hurts you or your feelings.

Today I learned...

Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter IS A FANTASTIC MOVIE.

I am going to miss living here.
I am going to miss my friends.

Today I learned...

everything is new, every day is new, things are happening and they'll never stop.

Today I learned...

how to put myself on the path to happiness. I've never felt so hopeful for something to happen as I felt while conversing with my mother tonight. I need to hang onto that feeling, that hope, for dear life.

Today I learned...

... how contrasting moments seem to nearly cancel each other out. But it's more than that... there's still always something thats left over, left behind. In the end, I just hope that life is giving me what I need.