Today I learned...

that I need to learn how to cheer myself up. There are too many things going well for me to give up now.

Today I learned...

Anticipation. More anticipation. I am annoyed. I have a headache. I feel sick.

Today I learned...

how to have the worst headache imaginable.

Today I learned...

how it felt to witness the ending of an era. Even if I never cared for it's aesthetics, I appreciated it like no other.

Today I learned...

how to have fun with my friends and do what I love effectively at the same time.

Today I learned...

the true feeling of anticipation that comes with projects that you believe in and love.

Today I learned...

Anticipation. Just get this thing released already.
Everyone wants something, all of the time.

Today I learned...

Friends are golden.

Today I learned...

how dreadful and rewarding going to school can be.

Today I learned...

something that I used to know.

Today I learned...

how much of a bummer missing out on something can be.

Today I learned...

Accomplishments feel great.

Today I learned...

how great it feels to come home to Kinglsey.

Today I learned...

to never go to Tyler's again if I want to remain sober. Oops.

Today I learned...

not much at all, but hanging with friends is fun!

Today I learned...

how sometimes things change and stay the same all at once.
how it feels to meet someone a second time.
how it feels to lose $20 and then not really to have lost it at all.

Today I learned...

how cold the Borg Ward is, and how fun it is to take promos of great-looking people.

Today I learned...

about a lot of great new musicians: William Earle Beal (sp?) and Wild Belle being two of my favorites. Oh, and Schubas needs to get their set-up time limit together.

Today I learned...

what a rave at the Metro looks and sounds like. Weird.

Today I learned...

what walking around Chicago during the first snow of the year feels likes.
how it feels to almost pass out in a sold-out Lincoln Hall.
what it feels like to go sideways down the highway and live to tell the tale.

Today I learned...

what it feels like to have my heart and stomach drop to my feet. Metaphorically, of course, but I've never felt that because of a stupid silly text from someone ever before. I hate that it affected me so much. I. Hate. That. I was so ready to be done with that heightened emotional state of mind that I used to be in 24/7. But it took me much less time to calm down than it normally would, so I was proud of myself for that. I just need to think and breathe.

When someone matters so much to you and then suddenly gets you out of their life and won't allow you back in, it's something that takes a ton of time to get over. It doesn't just go away, but when it fades, it usually gets easier to keep it gone.
But with a simple text. Two words. "Hey Krystal." That's all. And my world came crashing down for a good half an hour.

But screw that. He sucks.

Today I learned...

The Schaumburg Post Office is pretty darn lame and only helpful when forced to be.

Today I learned...

This is so real. It's happening.

Today I learned...

how to lose a day to sleep.

Today I learned...

how great it feels to see and old friend, and how... interesting it is to see some others. New friends rock, too.

Today I learned...

a lot about my friends.

Today I learned...

"You... are... so... confused." - Cartel

Today I learned...

that when you don't get enough sleep, life is cruel.

Also, my cat is the best little puttin ever.

Today I learned...

that when you get enough sleep, life doesn't seem as hectic and mean.

Today I learned...

that I am excited to become a real-life-living-breathing-adult.

Today I learned...

Fondy friends rock.

Today I learned...

what the last day of 2011 feels like. I am indifferent, upset, excited, and everything else.